Demonised 15/3/07

Demonised, a product of it all.
see through my eyes,i look at you with eyes closed.
19 years of play, tell me you hate me,
helps me realise i dont wana stay.
running through water, salty waterfalls trickle,
wash away sins that seem so fickle,
don’t move don’t move, im paralysed,
snort up the snow, mind is catalysed.
sniff up the gas, the noxious fumes,
takes more than dust to intoxicate through and through,
acceptance of mistakes in a paralysed state,
human error, but never fake,
F*** wanting silence, il never hesitate,
i back me up wen im tied in,
never expect silence when ur pushing me in.
understand my past, present and future,
eruptions so fast, molten flow faster.
understand this, when i say ‘you’
its a product of my environment
im crumbling through and through.
carried on clouds of liquid given by pixies,
mind set slow, my hearts doin 160,
im volatile..
soul twisting in anguish, its becoming demonised
when all i feel is..nothing,
keeping me alive,even tho i’m paralyzed,
my soul twists…needing escape,
sweet surrender to an induced place,
money is the capital, laws made to guard the state,
lead the crime of a never ending cycle
of falling without a break.