Giving In

ive been silent for so long
standing still as the world rolls along
keeping quiet but not to kill
sleeping through violence
telling my mind to be still.

remaining rootless to temporary things
taken to be heartless coz i dont give in
eyes closed so far and tuning in,
listening to the sounds of the world
as it tries to suck me in.

remaining apathetic to those around me
questioning it all only to find
apathy is the thing that clears my mind..
why settle in and give a F***
better to just keep my barrier up
why let in enemies and mindless past times
no difference between foe and those that act kind
when I don’t give in to nothing, im just focused on one thing,
blinded by worldly pleasures..in different forms,
lust and intoxication are my norms
im fighting im battling im not giving in
trying to break free from this sea of sin.