Struggle

i took my last breath time ago,
watched my last sunset and let life go
slept my last sleep and woke up dead
lips soft with words, never said.

words i struggle with that reflect life
emotions and thoughts, frozen like ice,
my fires out, that i couldnt control,
revelling deep in the dark unknown,
fuelling my hedonism minus the pleasure
burning and exploding coz i didnt know better.

and now the days over and
bridges have been burned,
emotions dead and no longer unable to return,
i know now that the night aint so cold
when you realise your alone, the wind aint
so harsh, when you’ve iced your heart
and the moon got more to say..when the sun
dont light your way.
solitude is somethin i crave, but i know
its like being in my own grave,
so i’ve locked my heart..mind and soul
just another walking shell frozen and cold.