tears (21/11/07)

when am i gonna learn..tell me when am i gonna learn
its taking its toll..the fact that i dont burn.
i can feel it when im silent and looking up at the sky
and those sighs that take me over,
eyes closed, those sighs..
or when im finishing off my deathly stick stubbing it out
closing the window with a click,
the heavyness bears upon me
and although its gone within an instance, the feeling is intense,
they think im positive..and nothing gets me down,sometimes i wish it did,
so i could feel human just for a bit
the pain or anger never stays..never give it time to sink…im already on my way, busy with new kicks.
the question in my mind is could it have been love if it dont sting and
make my eyes water, our moments were deep,
and as the days got shorter
the distance between us grew and in a way thats nothing new..but the circle im in is beginning to wear thin..trying to break free, but going back to the darkness im entrapped in.

im told never change my ways,
and if the person cant understand leave them lost in their haze..
‘never compromise lest lose yourself and face your demise’
the ice i project envelopes the sadness in my eyes,
theres no rest for the wicked,the pitt im in is full of scorpians & snakes,
i lay still, some nights are the same as days
fighting and struggling in my sleep,
me leaving pushes the dagger deep
into the minds of those that try n f**k with me,
mind f**ks dont effect me, they’re a one way street
so i turn my back,got no time for souls that play dead at my feet.
turning the corners of my life, breathing in noxious fumes of fears
the sun rose when i was born, and its been setting for many years,
hands have been placed on my face..but non have wiped away my tears.