just a mumble of thoughts.. i wana know what keeps me awake at night, maybe im in some unknown plight snake twisting my body, the fangs in my face.. i smile but she dont know it,she thinks she’s initiating the race. if only she knew what i knew..yet she still in the same place F*** knows if she’s blind or just stupid.. lost her mind over the arrow of cupid..dont you know they whisper ..yet you’re still dizzy from it all the world is waiting, wanting to see you fall to realise that deceit and lies will catch up with you the madness the tears will ensare you over the years.. i guess...

The sun was shining today, a beautiful start Rays brighten dull room, burn away the dark I took a stroll outside but to my demise - It was truly depressing for not a soul in sight. Bought an ice cream from overpriced ‘Costcutter’ Dirty, empty shelves – this place is the gutter. Made my way back home in a sad state of being, Wondered how long left before I end up fleeing. Inner city ghetto with nowhere to go? This is suburbia I’ll have you know…

Imagine time as a deep well with water below. Is there any left? Drop a pebble and watch it go There will always be an end to hear it splash How long it takes, will it be a plunge or crash The answers are hidden but the truth is known Running forward together – to be questioned alone. They say ‘he went too early, he shouldn’t have gone’ Until it’s too late, will I prepare for meeting the One?

i took my last breath time ago, watched my last sunset and let life go slept my last sleep and woke up dead lips soft with words, never said. words i struggle with that reflect life emotions and thoughts, frozen like ice, my fires out, that i couldnt control, revelling deep in the dark unknown, fuelling my hedonism minus the pleasure burning and exploding coz i didnt know better. and now the days over and bridges have been burned, emotions dead and no longer unable to return, i know now that the night aint so cold when you realise your alone, the wind aint so harsh, when you’ve iced your...

he tells me to write not knowing its a battle with no end in sight, his talk of satisfaction rings a bell like spitting words give me relief from this freshly sprung hell he tells me to write unable to see words are like air…and now im unable to breathe. shutting down, coz i cant see anymore..i cant feel whats raw, curled up and eyes closed, my soul still, its froze. he mentions cycles when i say nothing left.. hes so sure, but the thing is iv seen it all before..i know the cycle, studied it..like im its only disciple, knowing the end before the begining, my horizon’s darkening..my...

Demonised, a product of it all. see through my eyes,i look at you with eyes closed. 19 years of play, tell me you hate me, helps me realise i dont wana stay. running through water, salty waterfalls trickle, wash away sins that seem so fickle, don’t move don’t move, im paralysed, snort up the snow, mind is catalysed. sniff up the gas, the noxious fumes, takes more than dust to intoxicate through and through, acceptance of mistakes in a paralysed state, human error, but never fake, F*** wanting silence, il never hesitate, i back me up wen im tied in, never expect silence when ur pushing me in. understand...

It all rests on this, the forked tongue of youthful bliss leading me into a shadowed world, future uncertain, not that I care. Anything to get out of this sticky abyss. Heart heavy, see me carefree, dreams unfold I’m watching the real me, those eyes, that persona haunting me. words spoken, no belief, highs and lows ,they feel the same, life has just become another drug, the hit lifts me, but the s*** still the same, the crumbling statues built upon ground, love so eternal it chases me and growls, sleep so deep, in it I see the piece of the puzzle now, undone. continue, just as I walk, waves crashing,...

ive been silent for so long standing still as the world rolls along keeping quiet but not to kill sleeping through violence telling my mind to be still. remaining rootless to temporary things taken to be heartless coz i dont give in eyes closed so far and tuning in, listening to the sounds of the world as it tries to suck me in. remaining apathetic to those around me questioning it all only to find apathy is the thing that clears my mind.. why settle in and give a F*** better to just keep my barrier up why let in enemies and mindless past times no difference between foe and those that act kind when...