Why do I feel the need to cry Tears roll down my face and dry Have you ever forced yourself to Blinding thoughts travel through Trivia and loose talk so distant now Looking at the universe, wondering how I don’t want to be a repetition of the past I know my enthusiasm will not last And how do I remain steadfast, when life Tests in ways that appear finite So many questions with no answers Spread so fast, an unstoppable cancer Maybe that’s why people want to quit Simple really – to avoid being hit.

Why do you never write anything positive? Perhaps a smile emerges from your lips. Here you go, a joyful poem for you Happy days ahead and the sky is blue People are singing and dancing along Joining together, in rhyme and song No worries no problems, its really great I love this feeling of being awake So I continue my life without a care To open my eyes I wouldn’t even dare Watch the path don’t trip and stumble For facing reality makes dreams crumble. Of reality you speak so tragically? Mankind is happy and in total equality, And those that aren’t, we’re saving them Liberating the lands...

I take a deep sigh and then I write these words Call me depressing but this life hurts A fool is only what I can claim to be as time, Time does but claim me. Swallowed up in what some consider a game, Play it I guess, reality is nowhere in the name. The difference is I will make mistakes And not be able to turn back and recreate I look at my friends and see them in pain, Guilty indeed as the scars remain Forgive me, please, I beg you now. Then I turn to myself and wonder how.

If there’s one thing in life that I have learned Put your hand to the fire and it will be burned As a child you learn from your mistakes It appears I’m willing to fund my fate A gaping void has opened in my life Ungrateful? Do His blessings not suffice? So then why do I kneel instead of prostrate The words uttered with a bitter taste. Time has passed and things have changed The gap will be filled by bonds of pain I’m going to fight and hold onto the gem To let go would be fuelling my own end I am no longer scared of the battles ahead, I look forward to the dream instead.